Soul Speak from Backbeats
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Friday Night/Saturday Morning in Brooklyn
I'm new to this experience but it feels equal parts surreal & cliche. An after party...after the underground club, brings forth a gathering on the rooftop. I suddenly realize that I've made my way from subterranean areas like the subway & clubs, far below 'ground level' to the rooftops of Brooklyn, practically tasting the sky upon my lips. Far too susceptible to vertigo from the heights of this gothic landscape, I choose not to dangle my legs over the ledge, selecting a folding chair to be my vantage point. The experience is far different than the various scenarios my imagination created since my adolescence, for it's tangible & dangerous.
Drunken souls discuss the hard truth consequences of a base jump from the roof top, immediately followed by the outlandish posits of jumping from rooftop to rooftop. A part of me fears the inebriated adventurer. One that fails to realize the limits of one's delusions of invincibility (especially lubricated on alcohol), but a larger part of me knows it's not likely to happen.
Yet in still, here we sit, waiting to greet the sun. "Home" @ least for the moment, is 3/4 of mile away, & I feel like breakfast & a brisk walk is in order, better yet, oh so necessary.
All that I see is illuminated. A new day has dawn, with more promise than I have ever known before.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Random thoughts on the view from the passenger window.
I was all of six years & five months on that date, & would remain unaware of said tragedy for another twenty-four years. Suddenly, in that moment, I became filled with equal parts gratitude, for each breath is a blessing, & regret that such an unfortunate event took place. Much is made of 'arrivals' that it's easy to take the trip, itself, for granted. I find it a bit sad when you consider that some of us never make it to our desired destination--but it doesn't make the path we take along the way any less beautiful.
This is nothing like a revelation, but something similar to gaining perspective. Prayers for safe travels to all on this journey called life.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Race Against Time
Thursday, November 18, 2010
GAME ON!!!
All these folks butt hurt over a silly game need to chill. These ESPN folks complain because they've got nothing better to do other than instigate controversy & the rest of these fools are offended because they just like to be outraged. I mean, how else will they get any attention or have "news" to report? If any of these decent people were seriously concerned about gun violence or the human casualty of war, they would be activists for stricter gun regulation domestically & pushing for ending military actions abroad that put American lives in danger. Maybe, they'd simply get more involved in their children's lives so that they could be more aware of whether or not their kids are at risk of acting out or suffering from gun violence...but no, it's far more easier to simply complain and target a high profile celebrity to be an example rather than being a living example themselves.
All this hub-bub reminds me, I need to get my hands on a copy of Black-Ops for PS3. (No such thing as bad press...yay marketing!)
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Some Words Choose Themselves....(Sub-Clear-Un-Conscious Musings, Part II)
What Up World!!! It's me again, ready to share some more "poetry" of mine. Stumbling across these gems in some of my old notebooks was a trip! I had a good time typing them up & making small adjustments. They exhibit my romanticism (despite what my friends may say I am, at heart, a hopeless romantic), my constant battles with the ideals of permanence, & my perspectives on being Black in America.....hope you dig.
En - AMOR - ed
I wish my words could stir your soul.
Act as a longing gaze you would dare not break.
An intensely inviting, yet inquisitive stare.
I wish my words could be a soft caress when I'm not there.
Or a symphony of sweet nothings whispering gently in your ear.
Inspiring smiles that start each new day in song,
& mark every evening with a lullaby that soothes you to sleep.
For I watch you lie in beauty softly, & think that this all must be a dream.
I listen to the rain, beat gently against the window pane,
& faintly hear Coltrane's "A Love Supreme"
Holding you, I wish I could join you, in sweet surrender for a while.
I close my eyes & pull you closer to me,
& to calm my restless state I simply picture your smile.
Oh, captivating beauty, how you intrigue me so.
All that makes the mystery of creation so beautiful.
Inspiration lies in the contours of your body.
Fascination lives inside your eyes.
Nurturing lover...sister, daughter, mother...you are the essence of life.
Sultry seductress of my soul, I am but a slave to your will.
A simple touch...a single smile...are all evidence that God is real.
To Make A Memory
Moments always fade so quickly,
like the words we forget to say.
Fleeting with the feelings we tend to take for granted,
when foolish pride gets in the way.
Drinking in each moment isn't always easy.
At times it seems you're more likely to drown.
For in a lucid life, sober is safe...but no idea is sound.
We all know that time waits for no one,
& things often never go as planned.
But if you brunt the risk to reach out for someone,
be sure to hold on as tight as you can.
A Black Militant Message To An Endangered Species
We once said...fists up, eyes open, power 2 the people.
We fighting for freedom elsewhere when our rights aren't equal?
I saw the (sur)reality of Katrina & I ain't waiting for the sequel.
Politics are a circus, just look at how they treat you.
Politicians are all the same & their gimmicks are see-thru.
Lobbyists are now their base, so they act like they don't need you.
Strange that ignorance is bliss, but power lies in knowledge.
Ever wonder why there's more black men in prison than in college?
Former felons can't vote or hold public office.
How about we take a closer look at the projects?
View it as a project in institutionalized slavery,
a psychological study in what behavior will be,
when living in poverty with more probablys than possiblys,
a skewed media image, & stereotypes infinite.
Second class citizen, it's their world that you're living in.
Broke, but got to make the rent?
What a sad predicament.
Caught in a trap, they set knowing that crime pays.
When you're expected to survive on $5.25...
until they get you in the system working for 35 cents a day.
Now that sounds like slave wages.
Just turn back the pages.
Peep all the stages,
of how they have made us,
niggers & killers...
prostitutes & pimps.
Conquered by the divide into Bloods & Crips.
(Ain't that some shit?!?!?)
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Moving On
What up world?!?!?!?
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Some Words Choose Themselves....(Sub-Clear-Un-Conscious Musings, Part I)
{...from the Catholic Encyclopdia}
-Consciousness:(Latin conscientia; Ger. Bewusstsein) cannot, strictly speaking, be defined. In its widest sense it includes all our sensations, thoughts, feelings, and volitions--in fact the sum total of our mental life.
{...from Mirriam-Webster's Dictionary}
-Conscious: Perceiving, apprehending, or noticing with a degree of controlled thought or observation - sharing another's knowledge or awareness of an inward state or outward fact.
What follows are a few words that came from within my own consciousness about my perception about everything from the cliche (love) to current events (the artistic merit of popular music culture). Many of these works stem from failed attempts to write lyrics for songs that were works in progress & somewhere along the line my focus shifted. I'm a big proponent of "if it don't fit, don't force it," so sometimes I write just to be writing, all the while hoping that the release would generate something greater or give light to something else around the corner, in my mind, that I was waiting to discover. I guess it's what many would many consider poetry, but I just think of them as expressive thoughts that I held in what feels like a long time ago. I hope you dig.
MUSE: First Movement
As I journey through this land of thieves & cutthroats,
I summoned the "Queen of Hearts Within All Art(ist)s" for help...& hope.
It was rhymes that she wrote.
Not Murder.
Because in a world so wide, why not try to free one's mind in order fly further.
For shouldn't we all know by now why the caged bird sings?
You can pick to kick tragic tales of street dreams gone awry. When hopes that sky skyscrapers...all in the name of love of for that paper, tempt you to taste the sweet sins that sugar the American Pie.
But not I.
I'm far too busy trying to build wings out of words.
MUSE: Second Movement
I intensely search my mind, so I can find...just the right words to construct my lines.
To speak of powers greater than what you feel with a 9' or 32's, for true fools think that guns save you.
Or that tecs bless protect...in any context...& can grant you the respect that you seek.
That's why I attempt to infect & affect the minds of the blind that treat statements suspect as sustenance for the mental.
Can't you see that the situation is critical?
My essence is independent, but you label me a liberal.
Since my beliefs, individual, lean to the left...perhaps I'm just not quite right.
But aren't we all...not...quite...right???
Perfect imperfections that say that "it is" because we say so.
Yeah, I'm left. Left handed. A left-handed thinker, so I guess that makes me right brained.
Or is it left?
Looks like I'm not quite right.....again.
Though I scour my mind for lyrics.
The essentially absurd adjectives & adverbs speak spoken word.
Do not fear it.
For it is the fear, the pain, & the struggle...to understand...to grow...to simply be, that manifested itself in words, compelling me to express.
Febuary 14th
I refuse to settle.
Though I may wear my heart on my sleeve, it shouldn't be difficult to believe.
Cause this is me.
And when love, actually, isn't anything that it used to be...I feel like I've gone crazy.
To have faith that butterflies may signify all that can only be revealed in each other's eyes, for these windows to the soul hold no prejudice for whom they leave exposed. So, I plead for them to let me know that the feeling is mutual.
I mean, it's already so hard to communicate in this breathless state that you cause...so I give pause to let our eyes to the talking.
Still...I refuse to settle.
To settle for a notion in my pants that speaks of lust to pass for love.
To settle for falling in love with the ideal of what one "could be" rather than who they really are.
I refuse to settle.
And I refuse to give in & give up the search for that true connection...but that's just me.
And upon further inspection it's as clear as day to see...that I'm just like any ordinary hopeless romantic.
Romantic...hope-less-ly.